a mission accomplished...

so i am happy to report i got the twins bday invites in the mail today...i was quite proud of the little jingle i came up with for them too...so i thought i would share for those of you who live to far away to make it to the party...

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Can you believe its been a year??

Time flies by, its already here…

Its time to celebrate, laugh and cheer.
Matteo and Vincenzo’s 1st Birthday party!!
We’re turning one, such lil’ boys we’ve become,

so come on over and have some fun!
Sunday, Nov. 16th, 2008
2:00pm
Our house: 20 Klink place, west Seneca
RSVP by: Nov. 10th
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We don’t need toys (we’re already spoiled little boys!)

but diapers and wipes and food are always nice!

Huggies or Pampers please, size 4 or 5 is what we need,

stage 2 0r 3 fruits or veg or gerber graduates for a snack instead.
Clothes would be good, size 18 months if you could,

sweats, jammies and things that are snuggly

cuz all winter long we plan to be cuddly!!
Thank you so much, we love you a bunch!

We’ll see you that day and then we can play!
Love always,
matteo and vincenzo

the day has been pretty good so far. i just got home from a fun morning at work with my 142-- zipcode bff jess and my at work husband dan...jess and i had about an hour of slow time so we got a little project accomplished...something i was very proud of when we were done - organizing the coffee on the retail shelf - i know, for many of you that sounds like something silly to be excited about, but if you are reading this and have ever worked at starbucks, im sure you understand!!

we are heading over to matt and bridget's for dinner tonight, tuscan is excited to play with his bff chase and we are excited to get out of the house and hang out with some friends!! we dont even care what we are having for dinner, we're just happy to have friends to hang out with!

so im going to go prime the last wall in the dinning room and get my coffee smelling self in the shower and dig out some warm clothes to wear (mandy - dont read this part!!) cuz its freezing here today!!! i am not ready for this at all, i was really hoping for a not so cold halloween because i have 3 really cute kids with really amazing costumes that i want to take out trick or treating!!

just to back track a little on the weekend too, kelly and kennie came down from syracuse sunday so jess could do their pregnancy photos, they turned out amazing - check jess's blog in a few days to check some of them out, she's a follower of my blog, so just click her pic! then they came back to our house for dinner...hot and spicy tuscan bread, frank's homemade pasta fagioli and ceaser salad. it was delicious...

and something very exciting was accomplished for me this weekend...out of curiosity i went down to the basement to pull a few pairs of very pre-pregnancy jeans out of my bin of "shans super small clothes" and i was able to comfortably put on a pair of old navy size 2 jeans!! i was sooo excited!! wasnt quite able to button the all time favorite pair of jeans, but i did get them all the way up!! so maybe before the year is up... im keeping my fingers crossed but who knows, i am a sucker for christmas cookies!!

can today be my groundhog day??

i had a great day today, which is kind of rare on days that i dont work. and actually, i never even left the house! i woke up early today, around 7:00 - both the babies were awake so i figured i would let frank sleep a little longer and i got up and gave them another bottle...it was still dark out so i thought i might be able to trick them into thinking it was still sleeping time! it worked, but only for a few minutes, by 8:00 they were screaming to get up and tuscan was calling for me through his bedroom door. so i got up with frank and got all the kids changed and he headed down to feed them breakfast while i crawled in bed to catch up on some much needed sleep. i generally average about 5 hours a night and every few weeks that starts to catch up to me and i need a morning to sleep in...so around 945 i crawled out of bed and my wonderful day continued. nothing in particular happened, but i think thats what made it a good day. shortly after i got up the twins were ready for the mid morning bottle and nap. matteo slept from about 1030 till 1:00 and cenzo slept from 1030-noon and woke up wet and upset, he's teething again and is a little feverish, so i gave him half a dose of tylonal and he went right back to sleep, until almost 4:00!! i couldnt believe it! so for a few hours i was able to enjoy just matteo, tuscan was down for his nap too. it was so nice because it is such a rarity that i get to spend time with just one of the twins. they are pretty much on the exact same schedule so that doesnt make for much alone time with either of them.
before frank went to work today i was able to finish painting the livingroom. ill have to wait to see it in the daylight tomorrow to see if it needs a second coat or not - im hoping not! frank and tuscan put away all the lawn furniture and cleaned out the shed....tomorrow is grass cutting day, the last cut of the season and thursday the lawn mower is retiring to the garbage!!
i actually made dinner tonight and it was more than just mac and cheese! it was a stove top recipe, modified to my liking - chicken, cream of mushroom soup, some milk and cheese, brocolli (tuscans fav. veggie) and the stuffing...in the oven for 30 mins...it was delicious! and the twins ate their first oreo tonight - i wish i had some pics - but no camera = no pics :-( next time...
everyone went to bed without a problem tonight, everyone played together nicely all day...never once did i have to raise my voice or yell at anyone. it was awesome, i really wish every day could be like today!
but im off to clean up the kitchen and plop on the couch to watch some tv...and maybe eat a snack, now that we have some food in the house!! ( i got up at 630am yesterday to go to the grocery store before church!)

what a wonderful morning...

it may have been short lived, but i had a great morning with tuscan today...when we all got out of bed this morning we realized we were almost out of milk and only had enough formula to get us through today (2 quarts) so we ate breakfast and then tuscan and i headed out for some "me and mommy" time together. we only had an hour, but it sure was fulfilling. we went to tops, got the essentials, ran to target for some baby food (that was marked down!! - gotta love it) and he got a box of fruit loops, his only request, how could i say no...he was chatting away with the lady cashing us out about the "monsters" that were hanging all over the store for halloween. then because he was such a good boy, we spent our last 10 minutes together at starbucks, me sipping a chai and him chugging his hot chocolate! crazy kid, im not even exaggerating when i say his hot chocolate was gone in 2.5 minutes!! then he liked his lips, said "mmm..good" and waved to the ladies ("bye ladies" - in tuscan voice) and we we're home just in time for frank to leave for work.

i also was able to pay off two of our credit cards this morning - major accomplishment, they will be cancled tomorrow as soon as payment posts. the twins just went down for their nap, tuscan and i are off to eat some lunch (peanut butter and fluff sandwiches!!) and when everyone gets up i think we're going to take a walk to the bank.

i got some good news yesterday - hopefully anyway - we might be able to get our camera fixed for about $30. one of the guys frank works with said his mom might be able to get it fixed for us, she is the manager or something over at stereo advantage...so hopefully we will get a break on that one - because who seriously has $100+ laying around to just unexpectedly buy a new camera?? not me! im trying to pay off our debts, not create more...but with 3 adorable and amazing kids, not having a camera is like not having food in the house!! its a necessity in our life right now! replacing that would be more urgent then getting a new appliance!! so we'll see what happens...

jess came over last night for our thursday night ritual...i gave her a new hairstyle...bangs!! she looks amazing, of course...so the next chance we get we are going to put some real dark chestnutty low lights in her hair. hopefully she will be my walking model and i can start doing more hair at home - it would be a great way to make some extra money while doing something i have always truly enjoyed. (anyone need a haircut?? color??)

second color in the living room is complete, as of yesterday morning. so that was a big stress reliever...tomorrow when i get home from work i plan to start (and maybe complete depending on how many coats it takes) the 3rd color in the livingroom...then we just have to touch up a few spots on the ceiling and the living room will be done, well at least as done as its going to be for now... new carpet and baseboards is something for the future.

oh and i forgot to post about this last week...we got an amazing deal at our neighbors garage sale last weekend...a deal that we just couldnt pass up! i would love to post a picture, but i cant take one! anyway, a big screen hitachi tv (not flat screen but still, its huge and its hdtv compatible, engerystar) and sony surround sound in amazing condition for...are you ready??....$200!!! its franks christmas/birthday present, a few months early and we are super excited about it. it was just what we needed to complete our new livingroom. it was something we planned to get sometime in the very far future because we new we couldnt afford it right now....but for $200, there was no way we could pass that up!! so anyway...off to eat lunch with hopes that the rest of my day is as good as my morning was!!

love to all...

much better day....

after a long talk with frank last night, we were both able to get a few things off our chest. i think he now has a better understanding of where im coming from when i have days like yesterday. and i think i have a little more patients for his - well him just being him. he said he doesnt understand why he hasnt figured out a routine for himself and the kids at home because he is so good at being organized and having things under control at work. so i think he understands and realized that its an area he needs to work on. and for the whole 2 hours that he was home today, i saw an improvement. i think yesterday was just one of those days when life got the best of us, weeks of barely seeing each other and lack of communitcation in those weeks just took a turn for the worse and we were lost with each other. we forgot how to interact together as a team and we were at each others throats all day.
it gets hard sometimes, really hard, because more often than not i live my life like a single mom would. i am 75% mom, 20% starbucks barista and 5% wife - i hate that thats my ratio but thats where life is at right now. frank and i maybe spend 10 hours a week together so when we have to spend a whole day together, we sometimes forget how!! he has his morning thing that he does with the kids (consistant or not) and i have my whole day...trying to mesh the two of them together while keeping everyone happy can sometimes be a challange - thats where we were at yesterday. but by the end of the night my blood pressure was back down into normal range and i was snuggled closely in franks arms when we went to bed - a good ending to a horrible day.

i never would have thought that being a "stay at home" mom would get so lonely, if it wasnt for my job 20 hours a week, i would lose my mind!! i love my kids more than anything but i would love them so much more if i actually had the time to enjoy them and someone around more often to share them with. parenting was meant for two people and it sure is hard when your the one doing it 12 hours a day by your self. frank is an amazing dad when he is around but his job doesnt allow for that very often and even though i know there is nothing we can do about it, its still hard. i know he would never chose for it to be this way, but i just miss him. days can go by without us having a real conversation about anything of importance. and certain things will come up that i sware i told him about, but in all honesty, i may not have because i just havent seen him. this life was easier when it was just us, no kids, and when i had more friends around me to spend my time with, but trying to find friends who want to venture out of the house with you and your 3 kids, not easy...i can barely find family who wants to participate in that one...so im here everyday, so grateful for those i do have to "hang out with" via the internet! you guys are my saviors some days and i want you to know how much i value our friendships. you help keep me grounded somedays and you remind me that im not alone in this venture of life!!
i have a lot of fun and exciting things coming up in the next few weeks, things that will help me feel like "shannon" again and not just mom...i love being mom, but i miss being shannon...so off i go to end my evening as mom with hopes of finding an hour before i passout to spend scrapbooking as shannon! love to all and many thanks to all of you who let me vent so openly - i really need to get frank on the internet more often so he also has more insight as to what goes through my mind on a daily basis!!

i just cant explain it...

please dont judge me or read into this to much, but i am having a horrible day and just need to vent in a way that no one will get mad, take it to personally or fight back.

i woke up today with great plans, prime the dinning room, paint the living room and then paint the dinning room after the kids go to bed...right, i think i should have ended that dream as soon as i put my feet on the bedroom floor! we did accomplish a lot, but not nearly enough and i am very angry about it for some reason.

the kids are all in bed, without a problem tonight...i should so be painting away at the livingroom walls right now, between me and frank we could have the living completed in two hours. it really wouldnt be a big deal, but i am so aggrivated with him tonight that i dont even want to try to pretend that i am having fun doing a house project with him. so that is just making me even more angry - i am in to bad a mood to paint and thats putting me in a worse mood because i am waisting time instead.

i think the real bad mood stems back to last night when my camera fell off the kitchen table and broke - again...i just got this camera in april because my last one fell off the kitchen counter at my parents and broke. this one wont turn on at all, canon wants either $150 for a refurbished upgraded model of the one i have or a minimum of $99 to try and fix it... what the @*&#!!!!!!!!!! i am so pissed..i only spent $100 on it the first time around, but now that its the upgraded model of this one, its another $50...i have to call them and see if there are any other options, because none of those are going to work for me...but i think the phone call should wait until im in a better mood.

anyway, we did get the last wall of the livingroom and going up the stairs primed today, so thats ready to paint and 3 walls of the dinning room are primed, two of which need one more coat (raw drywall, it needs a little extra love) so i think for sure i will meet my original goal date of nov 13th completion, but i was really hoping for oct 25th because mandy will be in town and i would have loved to show her a finished house!! she was here in july right before it all started, so it would have been exciting...but i need to be realistic.

oh, but back to the venting...do any of you ever have days when you wish you could pause your real life and live your dream life, even if only for a few minutes. im not even sure what my dream life would consist of because 98% of the time i love my life just the way it is. but sometimes there are days when enough is enough and i just want it to end. everything bugs me, nothing is going right and for what ever reason there only seems to be effort from others at making it worse.
my kids were great today, i cant recall a single moment when they actually got on my nerves. my husband on the other hand, i wish he would have been at work all day!! frank and i are so accustomed to not seeing each other often that sometimes when we spend a whole day together, its almost like we dont know how to communicate. i have such a set schedule with the kids, and he knows it, he's here twice a week to live it with me, but for whatever reason he thought he would just follow his own schedule today instead of the one they are used to....that is a set up for disaster in this house. then while he was trying to help me get stuff done, he did things that were not very smart...leaving pliers and hammers and screws on the floor, which the babies of course found and wanted to play with...and he wondered why i was so upset about it! to me pure laziness, if u want to help me dont be half assed about it...and the one that totally killed any chance of forgivenness tonight...matteo was overtired and being silly at bed time, so instead of taking the time to give him the undivided attention he was obviously craving, frank took the easy way out and put him in his bed with a bottle. that was it for me - we learned the hard way about bottles and babies at bed time with tuscan, it is not something we do in this house anymore and it made me so mad that he would deliberately do something that he knows i am not ok with, something that could totally ruin the bedtime routine i have set up with the kids to keep my life simpler and lower on the stress level. it was like a huge slap in the face to me, i have spent months getting to where we are today and he doesnt even care enough to spend 5 more minutes of his effort to keep everyones lives easier....aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im sorry, i totally understand if u have already stopped reading by this point. but i had to get it out - sadly, i dont think i feel any better!
tomorrows another day - but im not even looking forward to it - i wish i had to work!

nap time = better afternoon!!

thankfully my day wasnt quite as traumatic once the kids all woke up from their much needed naps. tuscan spent the night at our parents house last night and i cant help but think that he didnt get much sleep, cuz man oh man, he sure was cranky today! but his spirits seemed much better when he got up and we made a "deal" and even shook on it. the deal was if he was a good boy and ate a good dinner, we would make peanut butter cookies together! so low and behold, he ate an amazing dinner and asked for more several times! we had a homemade turkey pot pie that was leftover in the fridge and he kept asking for more corn, potatoes and turkey! so i kept digging through the pie until i could find what he wanted - unfortunately for frank, the piece that was left for him doesnt look much like a piece anymore...its sort of chopped up already!!

so to keep my side of the deal, we pulled up tuscan's cooking chair and got to work. he did a great job pouring all the ingredients into the bowl, but an even better job at licking the spatula when we were all done!! and i must say, our cookies are amazing!! crunchy peanut butter, peanut butter chips, chocolate chips and white chocolate chips (only because i didnt have enough of any of them!!) but it is the perfect combination! when they were all done, me and the 3 boys sat in the middle of the kitchen floor and shared a few of the warm cookies and ended our night with the normal routine - watching curious george!!

that is a face of someone hard at work, creating a masterpiece!! (he's a better baker than frank!!)

"just checking things out!"

"those cookies sure smell good!"

when it rains, it pours... (this blog entry is not intended for the weak stomached)

or in my case, when they poop, its a massive blow out!! fed all the kids lunch today and decided to use their snack time to vacuum and wet swiffer a few of the floors...it was about 15 minutes in all that the twins were sitting in the high chairs with their sippy of juice and some puffs on their tray. they were starting to get fussy so i decided to wrap up the cleaning for the afternoon and tend to their needs! well little did i know that matteo's needs were creaping up his back every second that he was sitting on his butt. by the time i picked him up there was a smooshy wet spot half way up the back of his shirt! so i got him and cenzo upstairs - who also smelled like poop - with tuscan trailing up the stairs behind us. i felt like a poop parade! matteo went straight into the tub, which he did not enjoy very much - no water + bath tub = very cold!! i stripped him down, thankfully without spreading this surprise all over the rest of his body...wiped him down best i could with 3 wipes and then sat him in the now warm water and rinsed and rinsed and rinsed...then washed him all up! got him dressed, meanwhile tuscan and vincenzo are playing together in cenzo's crib (i think its tuscans way of trying to connect on his brother's level!) then it was cenzo's turn for a new diaper and i was off to rinse out matteo's shirt (i contemplated putting it right in the trash with his diaper, but it was a shirt that i actually really liked!) rinsed out the stink, scrubbed out the tub and then tuscan walks up to me to tell me that he has a poopy diaper too! aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate dirty diapers!! i think i might start picketing outside my house with signs that say "no more poopy diapers" "poop on the potty!" i dont know how effective i will be and the neighbors might think im nuts, but im not sure how much more of this i can stomach. i can still taste it in the back of my throat - thats how the smell is stuck with me!
i am so sorry to write about this, as i am sure none of you really wanted to know, but this was my therapy session for the afternoon, the only way i knew how to deal with this past hour of my life. all my mom friends, especially those who have more than one poop machine, im sure u can all relate and are probably laughing at a similar experience that u had in the past or that you fear for the future!! so i thank you, for letting me vent...
and i must go, continue on with whatever my day may bring!
oh and im having major hair issues this week, i have been cutting more and more bangs everyday, trying to get them right and now i feel like i dont want them at all - but i dont really have a choice anymore, unless of course i cut the rest of my hair really short (like jon and kate plus 8 kate short) or for those of you who have known me long enough, like way back when when my hair was short and kind of spiky...do i dare?? or do i just shorten the bob and let the stupid bangs grow back in?? i have no idea - opinions please!!

boycotting baby food...

and moving on to bigger and better!! or wanting to anyway. the twins are starting to realize, now that they have teeth (matteo almost 5, vincenzo almost 6) that there is a lot of food out there that tastes way better than baby food!! tonight for instance...they were screaming at me for bites of my burrito...rice, shredded pork, beans, lettuce and salsa on a whole wheat tortilla, and they were loving it!! they had the biggest grins on their faces every time they took a bite!
after dinner i had the luxury of putting them in their stroller and taking them for a nice walk around the block! tuscan, to my surprise, got picked up by "nonna" on her way home from work and is spending the night there, so here i am - blogging, after playing a stupid computer game for a few minutes and catching up on some facebook gossip...when i could be doing something way better, like painting or even scrapbooking!! maybe that will come next!
but it was a nice night, only having two of the kids here. i was really able to spend some quality time with the twins. they are becoming very smart little boys recently and i have really been enjoying the moments when i actually get to play with them. they have recently realized the concept of playing cars and we "race" them back and forth...they are also starting to understand how to play catch... nights when i get to play toys with all 3 of the boys are fun, but i love moments when i get to love each child as an individual without having to immediately divide my attention between the other two. my boys are all so amazing and all in their own little ways! i am a very lucky mom and i feel so blessed everyday for all that i have in my life! now if only the world in which we live could become a more positive place, i may be able to find a way to enjoy life 110% - but what are the odds of that happening any time soon!?? i believe that God has a plan and i pray that part of His plan is to give me the strength to get through whatever it is thats coming. the world is a scary place right now and i just want to be able to provide for my family and keep everyone healthy. God, please bless America!

the reasons why...

i havent blogged much again this week, but there is good reason behind it! we have completed two areas in our house this week!! yeah...finally i can say one whole room is complete (aside from the closet organizer) so here's some pics of what we have recently accomplished...

the foyer...

the front half of the living room!

the twins also got their first hair cuts on friday...it was about time to trim off the comb over...it wasnt curling into a tidal wave nearly as cute after their baths anymore, so i decided to let go and let them become little boys - they will be a year old next month already!!

they were both very good about it, but also very curious!! and yes i saved some hair...have to put it in their scrapbooks - some day when i find the time to scrapbook again (like every night you are here kellie!! we will go through a lot of wine and be very successful scrappers!)

it doesnt seem like much, but it has kept us very busy...this weeks big plan, priming the second section of the livingroom and maybe the dinning room - while we have the primer on the roller! stay tuned!