in a funk (wednesday)

wednesday was a rough day...i woke up, much later than usual, which was very nice! and there was a gray sky, tons of clouds and it was pouring rain...not a great thing to wake up to on a day that already has a reason to suck! knowing that mandy and fam were getting on a plane at 4 made it really hard to get through the day...seems kind of silly, since i obviously knew she wasnt going to be able to stay forever...but i guess it was just because we really had such a great time together...it just makes it hard to think i probably wont see her again for almost a year, and it makes me sadder to think that our kids wont see each other for that long either!
i dont have very many mom friends around here, so for tuscan to have kids his age to play with, it was awesome! and today is just a sad reminder that 3 of my greatest friends live way to far away from me... kelly in syracuse, kellie in OK and mandy in FL. they are the three people that i have shared the most with thus far in my life and it makes me sad that they cant be around more often to share these new experiences with - like my kids!
but i do have to say, i have been blessed with the start of some amazing friendships here within the past year or so - jess, my best friend in this zipcode and bridget, my best mom friend in this zipcode! and i am finally getting involved with a group of girls from church, we're going to meet every other tuesday and i can already tell that god has put these new women in my life for a reason and i am so looking forward to it!
i have to say though, there is one nice thing about having amazing friend that live in other places...it gives you a reason to go on vacation or even just get away for a day! a drive to syarcuse to spend a day with kelly is always well worth it and my visit to OK last year was amazing, something i would have probably never done if kellie wasnt living there and soon i will have her as my main reason to head out to CO for a much over due visit (to catch up with even more great friends) and there is now very serious talk about a close in the future trip to FL...by close in the future i mean like march 2009....but its way closer than saying "one of these days" frank and i have recently been discussing the idea that if we ever want to do things and go places with our kids, we have to just do it and stop just talking about it. we need to just look at the calendar and pick dates and stick with them. it always comes down to money, but if the date is set then the money will be saved for when the time comes, we cant keep thinking that the money will come first! it doesnt happen that way. so thats what we're going to do, we are going to set dates, save the money and enjoy life, see things, go places...make our dreams realities and stop wasting the time we have here on earth. life is to short to wait for the good things to happen, sometimes you need to just make them happen yourself (with god by your side anything can happen and he has already answered more prayers than we could have ever dreamed of!) we are so blessed...and even though i may have been having a bad day, i love my life and wouldnt trade it for anything! and to all my friends, near and far - i love you too and i think about you all everyday!