just when you think your life couldnt get any better a surprise gift from God pops up in your mailbox. (if the anonymous sender happens to be reading this, i hope you know how much your generous gift is appreciated!) frank and i truly are so blessed in so many ways and we are starting to see how good things happen to good people! we have our moments, our days, that are less than pretty...but through them we have been learning and growing and i can finally say that we have reached a point where we have felt pretty successful at doing so. our hard work as parents, as husband and wife and at our jobs really seems to be paying off lately and apparently people are noticing and helping us to recognize our accomplishments and that means more than any surprise showing up in our mailbox!!! surprises are just added bonuses that really make the tears start flowing...happy tears of course!
so with this today, i had the most amazing cry this afternoon...one of those spill your guts because you feel so unworthy cries with God. i havent had one of those in such a long time and to be honest, i have been intently praying for a moment like that with God for quite some time now. every week when i sit in church i notice my mind wandering during the sermon, not because i am not interested or that our pastor is boring, but because its the only hour of the week that i actually have "time" to think! and then i catch myself and i ask for Gods forgiveness and i pray that he help me clear my mind enough to fully listen to his word as it is being taught to me, because he knows more than anyone how much i need to learn! well today i think i got the slap in the face i had been asking for and i couldnt be more grateful. since joining our small group a few months ago, frank and i finally feel as though we belong to our church as a family. its been something we have been seeking and praying for since we moved back home. our church family in CO was something we will never forget and something we greatly look forward to getting in touch with this summer! but today was a true reassurance that we do belong to something so wonderful here, The Vine Wesleyan Church, our new church family. a place we can run to in times of trouble, celebrate with in lifes joys and cry with in moments of sorrow. its a feeling greater than words could ever explain and all i can say is if you dont know the feeling i am talking about, i pray for you that you somehow find it because it is irreplaceable.
on another note...tuscan woke up from his 2 hour nap today with a completely dry diaper!! yeah tuscan...i was so proud of him, we did a little dance together in celebration!
it rained here most of the day, finally, my poor landscapping has needed the rain terribly! but that means ill need to spend some serious time out there in the next few days weeding...oh the price we pay! but i will be optomistic and look at it as Gods way of getting my butt outside to enjoy the world surrounding me. i have to take advantage of my outside time while i can because once the pollen starts flying the thought of the great outdoors will probably make me sneeze!! oh hay fever...at least this spring i can take some allergy medicine, i feel like its been a few year (of pregnancy) since i was last able to do that!
and now i am off to make my grocery list...its gonna be a big one, setting a strick budget doesnt leave much room for stocking up, so this is my big every-few-months stock up trip, we need meat, cereal, pancake mix, fluff, juice, pasta, sauce, some quick dinner items...the works! my boys are already starting to eat me out of house and home! i can only imagine the teenage years...
and if im lucky to have enough energy when that is all said and done, then i might scrap a page or two, cuz i dont have to work in the morning...yeah me!!
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