so i had to drop kellie off at the airport this morning, 745am and even though we both got a little choked up while saying goodbye, we both did a pretty good job keeping it together. i even made it all the way home before it actually hit me (i think i must have been holding my breath) and then i burst, the tears came pouring. i walked in the house and frank was feeding the boys breakfast and he knew to not even ask. my feelings were all over my face. i couldnt think about her or talk about her at all today without my breath catching in my throat and turning into a faucet of tears. and everytime i started crying tuscan would put his arm around me and say "ok mom, no cry" and he would remind me that kellie had to go home and take care of her dog! that little boy is so amazing to me though, he hugged me so many times today, trying to make me feel better and ease my hurting heart.
its just so weird, this time last night she was sitting right here with me, now she is back in CO again 1500 miles away. it just doesnt seem right. her being here was so natural, the kids fell in love with her right away, she jumped right into our routine like she had been living it with us all along! it truly was an amazing week and i feel so blessed to have such an amazing friend in my life. anyone who is willing to devote a week to hanging out with me and my crazy life is truly someone i will keep around for life! kellie is and always has been one of those friends i could count on no matter what. i have always known i could call her at any time, day or night and i know that if she was living nearer to me, this past year would have never been so hard on us because she would have been here helping out whenever she could. she is my other significant other and nothing will ever replace that!!
thank you mommarita for sending kellie to me. you have no idea how much it meant to me and i had no idea how much i needed her until she was gone again.
phone calls and internet just arent the same when you share that kind of comfort with someone and for the first time i think i can finally say i understand (in my own way of course) how she feels with randy being gone all this year. i suddenly feel so empty and lost, so alone...like there is a piece of me missing. at first i thought i was crazy, but then she said she felt the same way too. her flood of emotions hit when the plane touched down in CO...
friends are a precious gift, but my friendship with kellie is even more than that. i think that if God had intended for me to have a sister, it would have been her...but instead He made us greater than friends! i thank the Lord for you everyday kellie and i will be counting the wake-ups until i see you again!!
its just so weird, this time last night she was sitting right here with me, now she is back in CO again 1500 miles away. it just doesnt seem right. her being here was so natural, the kids fell in love with her right away, she jumped right into our routine like she had been living it with us all along! it truly was an amazing week and i feel so blessed to have such an amazing friend in my life. anyone who is willing to devote a week to hanging out with me and my crazy life is truly someone i will keep around for life! kellie is and always has been one of those friends i could count on no matter what. i have always known i could call her at any time, day or night and i know that if she was living nearer to me, this past year would have never been so hard on us because she would have been here helping out whenever she could. she is my other significant other and nothing will ever replace that!!
thank you mommarita for sending kellie to me. you have no idea how much it meant to me and i had no idea how much i needed her until she was gone again.
phone calls and internet just arent the same when you share that kind of comfort with someone and for the first time i think i can finally say i understand (in my own way of course) how she feels with randy being gone all this year. i suddenly feel so empty and lost, so alone...like there is a piece of me missing. at first i thought i was crazy, but then she said she felt the same way too. her flood of emotions hit when the plane touched down in CO...
friends are a precious gift, but my friendship with kellie is even more than that. i think that if God had intended for me to have a sister, it would have been her...but instead He made us greater than friends! i thank the Lord for you everyday kellie and i will be counting the wake-ups until i see you again!!
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i love you :)
so you know how I am with mushyness..NOT into it.. so of course a big part of me is all blah blah crying airport yeah yeah.... then I get to the part with "ok mom no cry" and I could almost hear that little voice say "teylay" and "daw" with something in between and I almost cried.. you nerd, thats enough mushyness you're making jess read. :P
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